For some reason, my take on Big Thief’s ‘Shoulders’ is growing to be one of the more popular posts on the blog. I login to the account, check out the stats, and on a pretty regular occurrence the post will be there in the “Most Viewed” when the time range is set to ‘Last 7 Days’. I don’t know how or where it’s being shared. But I guess it’s striking a chord with people. Just like ‘Shoulders’, today’s subject, ‘The Toy’, can also be found on Big Thief’s fourth album Two Hands, the second of two LPs they released in 2019. I was heavily unemployed that year. Big Thief made things feel somewhat better. U.F.O.F. was out in May. Don’t know how anyone else feels, but that’s still my favourite Big Thief album now. To everyone’s surprise, Two Hands was then announced in August, for release on October 11. So I waited for that date, in between filling countless job applications and feeling pretty miserable.

The day came. Went to Spotify, played that thang through. ‘The Toy’ was an instant highlight, I really liked it. Coming after the single ‘Forgotten Eyes’, it brings the energy levels down tremendously, going more for a contemplative route with a cradling, waltz tempo. On Spotify, out of the album’s first five songs, ‘The Toy’ has the second least plays. Not one that the consensus goes back to. I do suppose once you’ve heard the first verse and the “Toy in my hand is real” chorus, you’ve more or less heard the rest of the song. But it’s the repetitive nature of the song that really attracted me, plus the chord changes and guitar lines that occur throughout behind Adrianne Lenker’s up-close-and-personal vocal and Buck Meek’s short harmonies. Also, the outro after the final chorus, just the icing on the cake. Feels good to just sit and bask in the instrumental until it sizzles out the way it does. I think I hear someone giggle on the right at about 4:08 as the guitars ring out. Don’t know what was going on in that studio to cause such a reaction. Maybe it was the fact they got the take they needed. I’m glad it was left in.

I wish I could find the interview/write-up/story where it was said, but I’m sure that on it I read that the ‘toy’ in the song’s lyrics was referring to a gun. And after writing that sentence, I have found it might have actually been this one. But I think the ‘toy’ changes with each reiteration of the chorus, from a sex toy in the first, to a gun in the second, to an actual child’s play toy in the third and then…. I don’t know, maybe the world in the president’s hands in the fourth? Maybe a reach. But you read between the lines, and you’ll get what I mean. So instead of thinking about Lenker singing about a weapon in her hand, which I very much did even while typing this post up, I’m now thinking each verse is written from a different perspective, separate characters with these physical and potentially metaphorical items in their possession. Whatever their state of being, these ‘toys’ are real, they have an affect on people’s lives. They’re important. I think that’s what Lenker’s getting at. Like the song, like it a lot.